Last Chance

This is a poem I wrote in 2015. I imagine all of my poetry set to music but I am rarely able to come up with my own tunes. This poem I imagine set to the tune of Hello by Adele.

I met
A girl last month
She’s pretty, smart, talented,
And we want the same out of life
We grew
Up in the same church
Have the same taste in movies
And boy does she know how to flirt
I think
She has nobody else
We’re both getting older
And this is such an empty house
She laughs
At most of my jokes
We have fun together
So why do I feel about to choke?

Why do I feel sick inside?
With a pain that I can barely hide?
After all these years, you’re still in my heart
And who’s left for you if I were to start…again?

I haven’t
Yet told her my past
She hasn’t told me much either
But I know she’s allergic to cats
Somehow
I haven’t yet scared her away
She returns my messages
And she calls every other day
I feel
Like we’re all running out of time
I’ve been so lonely
In ways I can hardly describe
It’s nice
To have someone to care about
There is just this one thing
So hard to figure out

Why do I feel sick inside?
With a pain that I can barely hide?
After all these years, you’re still in my heart
And what’s left for you if I were to start…again?

They say to never lose hope
Or give up your faith
But how is it fair
To make her wait?

We're running out of time
We're running out of time
We're running out of time
We're running out of time

Why do I feel sick inside?
With a pain that I can barely hide?
Is she worth the work to tear out my heart?
And how can we ever be if I were to start…again?